To ward off ideology is not finally to see clearly but to be disoriented, allowing things to emerge in their murkiness and complexity. It might mean seeing and feeling more but often vaguely, like flickers in one’s peripheral vision or strange sensations that defy familiar categories and emotions. It is an undoing of oneself, cutting across the grain of habits and attachments. To step out of an inherited ideology can be joyful and painful.

— Joyful Militancy: Building Thriving Resistance in Toxic Times by Nick Montgomery, Carla Bergman (Page 122)